Not Like My Father
My father and I are not close
But I am too much like him to not be
The parts of him I hate
Show up everyday inside me
I wonder who I’ve become
When I wasn’t raised by him
I only lived in his world
Been made to live by his rules
Unaware of who he was
Until I was grown enough
To have a mind of my own
Which women should not be allowed
Once I married I was given some respect
Not much, nothing really more than an ounce
I’m still a child, my mother’s child
Because my father always said he wanted boys
How strong of a woman can I be
Still holding on to this pain
As if it happened just yesterday
And it happens everyday
He decided to not act like my father
Instead he acts like a fool
Trying to teach the world a lesson
Yes, I’m sure dad
You have taught me that
To doubt myself so much
That the only words that fall out of my mouth
Are always right
I’m right and everyone else is wrong
Stupid world
Why didn’t they have you as a father to show them
He will never change
Man child
Sexist
Selfish
His faults have shown me one thing
Who I don’t want to be
I fight everyday against that person
I lose most days
But at least I fight
