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Should You Stop Daydreaming?
I daydream instead of writing. It gets me in trouble, I don’t get a lot of writing done, but I do have a vivid imagination.
I could daydream all day. The problem is I lack focus. Does that make me just a daydreamer or a writer?
I can be obsessed with one thing all day. Like one day I became obsessed with us winning the lottery and I looked at which houses we would buy on Realtor.com. All day long I did this. I do that about once a month.
Then the obsession with an object that I just think I need. I researched it, looked at every single review, imagined it in my life, imagined it not in my life and how empty I felt.
I worried about how much it costs and rationalized that we can’t afford it so I shouldn’t buy it. Then I talked myself into buying it because I can use a credit card and really, that’s not money, that’s like winning the lottery, you can buy whatever you want.
Except for a house.
I waited for it to get here. I looked up the tracking number 20 times a day to see if my package had moved an inch.
I wondered if the thing I couldn’t live without is going to arrive in the morning so I can spend the whole day touching it or is it going to show up at night so I stay up…