Writing When Your Spouse Destroys Your Motivation
My husband wants to fight with me.
He starts an argument and it lasts for hours into the night.
I get four hours of sleep and then wake up at six in the morning to write.
He wakes up and tries to start a fight again.
I’m mentally exhausted.
I’m physically exhausted.
I’m not getting enough sleep.
He puts his perceived notions on me and wants me to pay for them.
I am.
I have.
I always will.
So how do I write?
How can I keep going when I am so drained and I have no motivation?
Up until this point, I let him control my emotions.
What he felt I felt.
What he said I thought too.
Until it became too much and too irrational.
And my dreams of being a writer became bigger than his dream of misery and needing company in that.
I bounced off rock bottom and said this is not good.
