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Writing When Your Spouse Destroys Your Motivation
Can you keep going when someone is holding you down?
My husband wants to fight with me.
He starts an argument and it lasts for hours into the night.
I get four hours of sleep and then wake up at six in the morning to write.
He wakes up and tries to start a fight again.
I’m mentally exhausted.
I’m physically exhausted.
I’m not getting enough sleep.
He puts his perceived notions on me and wants me to pay for them.
I am.
I have.
I always will.
So how do I write?
How can I keep going when I am so drained and I have no motivation?
Up until this point, I let him control my emotions.
What he felt I felt.
What he said I thought too.
Until it became too much and too irrational.
And my dreams of being a writer became bigger than his dream of misery and needing company in that.
I bounced off rock bottom and said this is not good.
